Sometimes I just have a ton of stuff to do.
Sometimes I have to do things that I don't want to do.
Sometimes I just want to sleep and forget these things.
One of those times is right now
I am stressed because of all of these things
God give me patience
God give me peace
Amen
Tuesday, March 31, 2009
Monday, March 30, 2009
my roommate twitters!!!
I would like to apologize to those readers who have no interest in media whatsoever, my last several posts have been all about media and for me it has been great, because it is a great way for me to get my ideas out there, and get your feedback. But for those who are not interested in that type of thing, it has probably been boring you to death. So this might be the last media related post for a bit. But I've just had media on the mind constantly lately, and there has been lots of stuff going on.
One of these things is that my roommate is now on twitter, and has his own blog. Now I haven't figured out yet whether he's actually realized the value in these things or if he just started doing them because I am huge on both of them. I think its a bit of both.
So his twitter is NateNearpass and his blog is "This is for my people".
He said the thing that drew him to twitter was that he read somewhere that Lupe Fiasco had a twitter, and he had heard me explain the purpose and benefit of having an account, so he decided to go for it, and I'm glad he did. I've been preaching about twitter ever since I realized the purpose and benefit of it, but people just don't get it, and they don't take the time to get it either.
But now that someone who is not a geek is on twitter, I'm hoping that it will catch on among my other friends. I think it will eventually, it just takes a long time. I mean, Nate is already getting discouraged by the fact that one day he had 12 followers and now he only has 9. I told him that is the way twitter is, people come and go. And I told him, it is not as easy as adding friends on facebook. I feel like there's alot more commitment with twitter. I mean it took me 2 years to get to 200 followers. But then again, its not just about your followers, its also about the people that you follow.
Also, to talk about Nate's blog a bit more, he loves to write, and he does it almost constantly, so I think this blog will be good for him. He has posted every day since he created it, and the good thing is, they're not long posts, alot of them are poems.
He was telling me last night that he had a problem that he has written so much, that he could do multiple posts per day if he wanted to. Now that's a good problem to have. LOL.
I told him that its ok if he posts multiple times per day, or he could spread them out over each day, so he always has a post for each day. But I think he's definitely understanding the purpose of social media more and more. And its good. I wish more people would take the time to try and understand it.
Now for those of you who are on twitter, lets show my roommate some love and give him a follow. Let's show him the power of twitter...All together now
Do you twitter?
Do you blog?
Do you have friends who don't see the purpose in either of them?
Let's spread the word, there is purpose in these things, and they can be profitable.
One of these things is that my roommate is now on twitter, and has his own blog. Now I haven't figured out yet whether he's actually realized the value in these things or if he just started doing them because I am huge on both of them. I think its a bit of both.
So his twitter is NateNearpass and his blog is "This is for my people".
He said the thing that drew him to twitter was that he read somewhere that Lupe Fiasco had a twitter, and he had heard me explain the purpose and benefit of having an account, so he decided to go for it, and I'm glad he did. I've been preaching about twitter ever since I realized the purpose and benefit of it, but people just don't get it, and they don't take the time to get it either.
But now that someone who is not a geek is on twitter, I'm hoping that it will catch on among my other friends. I think it will eventually, it just takes a long time. I mean, Nate is already getting discouraged by the fact that one day he had 12 followers and now he only has 9. I told him that is the way twitter is, people come and go. And I told him, it is not as easy as adding friends on facebook. I feel like there's alot more commitment with twitter. I mean it took me 2 years to get to 200 followers. But then again, its not just about your followers, its also about the people that you follow.
Also, to talk about Nate's blog a bit more, he loves to write, and he does it almost constantly, so I think this blog will be good for him. He has posted every day since he created it, and the good thing is, they're not long posts, alot of them are poems.
He was telling me last night that he had a problem that he has written so much, that he could do multiple posts per day if he wanted to. Now that's a good problem to have. LOL.
I told him that its ok if he posts multiple times per day, or he could spread them out over each day, so he always has a post for each day. But I think he's definitely understanding the purpose of social media more and more. And its good. I wish more people would take the time to try and understand it.
Now for those of you who are on twitter, lets show my roommate some love and give him a follow. Let's show him the power of twitter...All together now
Do you twitter?
Do you blog?
Do you have friends who don't see the purpose in either of them?
Let's spread the word, there is purpose in these things, and they can be profitable.
Sunday, March 29, 2009
Geek Alert
Well I woke up on this morning of March 29, 2009 to find that it was absolutely pouring down snow outside, I couldn't believe it. Gotta love springtime in Chicago. I had some friends visiting this weekend Bill & Melody Dickens with their son and good friend of mine Joseph Dickens, and they were supposed to attend church with me this morning, but they called very disappointed to say that they were going to go ahead and drive home as to avoid the snow getting worse. So I attended the early service at Park Community alone.
WARNING: Geek Alert!
Since I went alone I decided to sit behind the media/tech booth and kinda see how their system operates, and dang is it sophisticated. When the church built their new building they just decided to go top-of-the-line with everything, and this included the media department. They had a top-of-the-line sound board, light system, and video/projection system.
It took me a while to figure out but they had an iMac and a Macbook Pro running, and it looked like all they were using the iMac for was playing ambiance music before the service and then recording the service audio. Then they were using the Macbook Pro for what at first looked like projecting and controlling the words on the screen for worship but after watching for a while I realized that they were using that machine for the sole purpose of controlling the backgrounds and videos that were projected behind the words. It looked as though they were using a completely different machine for controlling the words, but this machine was nowhere to be seen in the tech booth. So I still have yet to figure that one out, but I found it very interesting.
So anyways, I write all that to say this, I realized today that there are alot of dreams that I have for my church back home and for the media dept. but most of these dreams have come from watching my church here in Chicago, and these two churches are very different in setting and context, so maybe all of these ideas shouldn't be implemented at my church in KY.
Secondly, I realized that to do implement some of these ideas cost a very large amount of money for hardware and software, and that is money that I know my church would not be willing or able to spend for their media dept.
So I came away from the service today having learned much from the sermon about personal standards for our lives, as well as learning much about the way my church in Chicago does media. It made me want to start serving there in the media dept. so bad, and I still might, but there are just so many other commitments in my life right now. I don't think I could do it.
Anyways, I know this post might not have been beneficial for some of my readers who aren't as geeky as I, but I hope that it was beneficial for those who are interested in this area of media in the church.
How does your church do media? Do they put a big emphasis on it or not?
WARNING: Geek Alert!
Since I went alone I decided to sit behind the media/tech booth and kinda see how their system operates, and dang is it sophisticated. When the church built their new building they just decided to go top-of-the-line with everything, and this included the media department. They had a top-of-the-line sound board, light system, and video/projection system.
It took me a while to figure out but they had an iMac and a Macbook Pro running, and it looked like all they were using the iMac for was playing ambiance music before the service and then recording the service audio. Then they were using the Macbook Pro for what at first looked like projecting and controlling the words on the screen for worship but after watching for a while I realized that they were using that machine for the sole purpose of controlling the backgrounds and videos that were projected behind the words. It looked as though they were using a completely different machine for controlling the words, but this machine was nowhere to be seen in the tech booth. So I still have yet to figure that one out, but I found it very interesting.
So anyways, I write all that to say this, I realized today that there are alot of dreams that I have for my church back home and for the media dept. but most of these dreams have come from watching my church here in Chicago, and these two churches are very different in setting and context, so maybe all of these ideas shouldn't be implemented at my church in KY.
Secondly, I realized that to do implement some of these ideas cost a very large amount of money for hardware and software, and that is money that I know my church would not be willing or able to spend for their media dept.
So I came away from the service today having learned much from the sermon about personal standards for our lives, as well as learning much about the way my church in Chicago does media. It made me want to start serving there in the media dept. so bad, and I still might, but there are just so many other commitments in my life right now. I don't think I could do it.
Anyways, I know this post might not have been beneficial for some of my readers who aren't as geeky as I, but I hope that it was beneficial for those who are interested in this area of media in the church.
How does your church do media? Do they put a big emphasis on it or not?
Monday, March 16, 2009
What's on your mind?
Over the next week or couple of weeks I will be writing some posts concerning the facebook redesign and some thoughts that I have on it. So just a warning, but I know alot of people have things to say about the "new" facebook so if you have feedback give it to me.
So I just want to point out a couple things that I immediately noticed upon the redesign of facebook's home page. And most of these have to do with facebook's blatant move towards a twitter-like concept and interface.
The first is the change of the status update box at the top of the home page. In the previous version it said, "Josh Burns is..." and then there was a box for me to update my status. One of the first things I noticed was the change to this feature. Now, instead of asking me what I am doing, now facebook asks me "What's on your mind?" And then it gives me a box to type, and then a "Share" button to post it to all of my friend's newsfeeds.
This is definitely going for twitter, because twitter started with asking "What are you doing?" And it still does, but it has evolved into a news aggregator as well as sometimes even a chat. So with this change facebook is trying move in this direction as well, they want to move to content posting, rather than just simply status posting.
Another big interface change is in the user profiles. And I just noticed this today, but when you go to write on someone's wall now instead of posting on their wall, you are now "sharing" something on their wall, and whatever you share on someone's wall is automatically shared on all of your friend's "streams" on facebook's homepage. So that is a big change.
Honestly, I could write for hours about facebook's new design, and its obvious steps toward the evolution of social networking, but this is neither the time nor the place. I enjoy discussing it though, so if you have any feedback leave a comment or shoot me an email or @reply me on twitter, and any other way that you can get in touch with me.
So in the conclusion of this post I'd like to mention the new facebook desktop client that was just released by seesmic(the developers of the popular twitter client Twhirl). It is in it's VERY early stages and there is alot of improvement to be made but I am glad that is where facebook is headed. In fact Tweetdeck has now integrated the facebook client into their twitter client, so that is nice. But just wanted to throw that out there, you can download the standalone facebook client here.
Let me know what you think about all of this stuff.
literally microblogging
The other day an opportunity presented itself for me to promote twitter to one of my friends. I seized this opportunity considering that hardly any of my friends see the purpose in, or even know what twitter is.
My friend, Jon Looy has a blog that he updates somewhat regularly and it is mostly just different events and happenings in his life, something that probably wouldn't interest someone who doesn't personalize know him, but I enjoy keeping updated on what he's doing.
The other day he made a post and this is what it said in it's entirety,
"I vacuumed the house today. I feel like a woman."
I read that and I just laughed. Just because I know him, and I can see him saying that. But I used this opportunity to comment on this post and tell him how funny it was to read that, but I told him that is the purpose of twitter, a "microblog." And that is all I said about it.
Ya know, its just nice sometimes to give a little plug to twitter, especially since its becoming more and more mainstream, and more people are tweeting.
Therefore I will end this post by using this opportunity to plug twitter and my personal twitter http://twitter.com/burno159
Are you on twitter? If so, what is your twitter handle? If you aren't on twitter, you should check it out.
My friend, Jon Looy has a blog that he updates somewhat regularly and it is mostly just different events and happenings in his life, something that probably wouldn't interest someone who doesn't personalize know him, but I enjoy keeping updated on what he's doing.
The other day he made a post and this is what it said in it's entirety,
"I vacuumed the house today. I feel like a woman."
I read that and I just laughed. Just because I know him, and I can see him saying that. But I used this opportunity to comment on this post and tell him how funny it was to read that, but I told him that is the purpose of twitter, a "microblog." And that is all I said about it.
Ya know, its just nice sometimes to give a little plug to twitter, especially since its becoming more and more mainstream, and more people are tweeting.
Therefore I will end this post by using this opportunity to plug twitter and my personal twitter http://twitter.com/burno159
Are you on twitter? If so, what is your twitter handle? If you aren't on twitter, you should check it out.
Thursday, March 12, 2009
blogging and singing
This post is going to include a short tip about blogging. This tip may seem kinda obvious, but I just get reminded of obvious things sometimes that at times aren't so obvious to me.
The other day I was sitting in my room in between classes and my friend Josh Jalandoon (a.k.a. Jollypop) walked in with his guitar and asked if he could play for a bit. I happily said yes because I needed to just relax and I love to listen to Josh play and sing. After a couple minutes he then asked me if he could play a song that he had just written, and of course I said yes.
It was a great song about Jesus' love for us, and how even when we sin he still loves us.
After he was done playing the song I just sat there and then thanked him because it was what I needed. He said that he just got this inspiration earlier that day to write that song, so he had to skip his Greek class to write it.
There are many times when thoughts enter my mind that I think would be great to blog about later, but I fail to write those thoughts down somewhere, and then when it comes time to blog I can't remember those thoughts for the life of me.
So one thing that I am learning and I would advise you to take heed to if you are blogging is to simply jot down a couple sentences about thoughts that come to mind, so that you can remember your general thought when you sit down to type out a blog post. Or if the thought is just too good even only write a couple sentences about you may want to sit down right then and there and just write or type the whole blog post. But either way you shouldn't let those thoughts run away from you because you will regret it later.
The other day I was sitting in my room in between classes and my friend Josh Jalandoon (a.k.a. Jollypop) walked in with his guitar and asked if he could play for a bit. I happily said yes because I needed to just relax and I love to listen to Josh play and sing. After a couple minutes he then asked me if he could play a song that he had just written, and of course I said yes.
It was a great song about Jesus' love for us, and how even when we sin he still loves us.
After he was done playing the song I just sat there and then thanked him because it was what I needed. He said that he just got this inspiration earlier that day to write that song, so he had to skip his Greek class to write it.
There are many times when thoughts enter my mind that I think would be great to blog about later, but I fail to write those thoughts down somewhere, and then when it comes time to blog I can't remember those thoughts for the life of me.
So one thing that I am learning and I would advise you to take heed to if you are blogging is to simply jot down a couple sentences about thoughts that come to mind, so that you can remember your general thought when you sit down to type out a blog post. Or if the thought is just too good even only write a couple sentences about you may want to sit down right then and there and just write or type the whole blog post. But either way you shouldn't let those thoughts run away from you because you will regret it later.
Tuesday, March 10, 2009
a good reminder
I had a great talk today with a good friend of mine who is also a mother of a good friend of mine. We talked about various different things, but one topic of discussion was the church that I visited this past weekend called Crosspoint Church. Out of this conversation spawned a conversation about media in the church.
Some of you know that I have many ideas about media in the church and how it should be used. I have a burden to implement these ideas in my home church. But something I was thinking about after that conversation took place today was that this burden was not so that I could be recognized or looked at for the things that I am doing in the church, but so that the church could become better at outreaching to those around it, and eventually bring glory to God through this.
I have never said that I want to be recognized for things that I do or am going to do in media in the church, but I have never said that I don't want to be recognized either.
Today I just realized the importance of giving all of the glory to God for the things we do for/in the church. All of these media ideas that I have, that I would like to implement in the church should all come with purpose of glorifying God, and they all do, but I think I need to think more consciously about this purpose.
Just a good reminder
Some of you know that I have many ideas about media in the church and how it should be used. I have a burden to implement these ideas in my home church. But something I was thinking about after that conversation took place today was that this burden was not so that I could be recognized or looked at for the things that I am doing in the church, but so that the church could become better at outreaching to those around it, and eventually bring glory to God through this.
I have never said that I want to be recognized for things that I do or am going to do in media in the church, but I have never said that I don't want to be recognized either.
Today I just realized the importance of giving all of the glory to God for the things we do for/in the church. All of these media ideas that I have, that I would like to implement in the church should all come with purpose of glorifying God, and they all do, but I think I need to think more consciously about this purpose.
Just a good reminder
Monday, March 9, 2009
short update - beginning of spring break 09
For those of you who read my last post, I know it was VERY lengthy and pretty heavy, so I thought I'd give you all a bit of a break for a couple days. So, I hope you all have enjoyed your break from my posts, and I am aware that usually my posts are like reading long chapters from a book, so in the future I'm going to try to keep my posts to a shorter length, just for your sake.
So a short update in my life...
I drove home from Moody on Friday for my spring break in which I get 2 weeks, which is great. I then drove down to Morehead, Kentucky the next day to visit my good friends, Jason Tucker, and Joseph Dickens who attend Morehead State University. So I hung out with them this whole weekend which was a blast. I've got some more thoughts about college life in regards to different types of college experiences, but I'll save those for a later post.
Well, I promised that this would be a short post, so I hope I have kept that promise. I am now home, and enjoying my spring break so far. If you are in the Cincinnati/Northern Kentucky Area and wanna grab some lunch or somethin just give me a call or shoot me an email, all my contact info is on my site, www.joshburns.net.
Be on the lookout for some more posts
Love you all
Have a great spring break 09!
So a short update in my life...
I drove home from Moody on Friday for my spring break in which I get 2 weeks, which is great. I then drove down to Morehead, Kentucky the next day to visit my good friends, Jason Tucker, and Joseph Dickens who attend Morehead State University. So I hung out with them this whole weekend which was a blast. I've got some more thoughts about college life in regards to different types of college experiences, but I'll save those for a later post.
Well, I promised that this would be a short post, so I hope I have kept that promise. I am now home, and enjoying my spring break so far. If you are in the Cincinnati/Northern Kentucky Area and wanna grab some lunch or somethin just give me a call or shoot me an email, all my contact info is on my site, www.joshburns.net.
Be on the lookout for some more posts
Love you all
Have a great spring break 09!
Wednesday, March 4, 2009
conviction
The Lord is doing something in my life. I'm slowly beginning to understand it. But I know for sure that the Holy Spirit is convicting me of sin. More specifically the sin of selfishness. Selfishness with my time, and with my relationships. This selfishness has also turned into pride in some contexts.
I have always been a quiet guy. Never had much to say, and I've always struggled with what to say when I meet new people. I have always struggled with relating to people. But this struggle has escalated majorly over I guess the past year. Or maybe it hasn't really escalated that much, but instead has come more to the forefront and is easier for me to see. I think it is a bit of both, maybe more of one than the other. But either way this struggle has turned into a sin, and I think it is displeasing God.
I have always struggled with relationships, whether it be with close friends, not so close friends, or even girlfriends. I have always struggled with communication and making sure that it is not just a one-way relationship. I think alot of what I have been noticing in myself has been brought to the forefront because of my last relationship that I was in with a girl. There were lots of things wrong with that relationship, but one of them was my communication.
Through some conversations with my last girlfriend I realized how selfish I really am. And it didn't seem selfish to me at the time, but looking back, I think it really was. I would say things like, "There are some people that just don't seem worth the time that it takes for me to get to know them, or talk with them." My philosophy on relationships here at Moody has always been that it is better to have a couple close friends, rather than a bunch of people that are your "friends" but you aren't close to. And I still somewhat hold to this philosophy, but I took this to such an extreme that I would just ignore people, or it would be really awkward around people when I run into them. I think alot of this comes back to just my inability to communicate well, but I shouldn't be using this as an excuse for that type of behavior.
The way this has become sin is because I won't bother to get to know people that I don't want to know, and therefore that turns into the perception of pride. Or maybe it is just straight up pride. But either way if alot of people are perceiving me as proud then I probably really am proud.
So I've realized alot through my relationship with my previous girlfriend, and then when we broke up I just became somewhat cynical towards girls in general. And I've developed this unconscious philosophy that I don't want to get close to a girl, or become friends with a girl unless I have the intention of getting closer to her, and eventually dating her. I'm still processing through whether this is the right way to think or not. I mean obviously I shouldn't be thinking this way all the time, but I think there is some truth in this way of thinking.
And throughout all of these things happening within my mind, and me unconsciously developing these philosophies on friendships and relationships I have been becoming more and more entrenched and obsessed with the world of the internet and technology, and more specifically the world of social media on the internet. I know, this sounds really geeky, but it is completely true, and this has had an impact on the way that I behave so I think it is profitable that I write about it.
I have always been a geek. Ever since my parents got their first computer back when I was in grade school I have learned more and more about computers, and have gained this ability to problem solve in the area of computers and technology. Then our household got dial-up internet, and this started to shape my world. But there was so much limitations with dial-up internet that I didn't see much profit in it. But then we got high-speed internet and thats when I really discovered the internet. So over the years I have learned more and more about computers, and technology.
So through various different social media mediums I developed this desire to always stay connected to those in my network, or on the internet. Whether this was through facebook, myspace, twitter, blogging, or any other means of staying connected socially through the internet. Through this I cut myself off from the physical world around me. I have become so entrenched in the technology world that I completely forgot about actually nurturing those relationships in real life. Even over the past semester I will spend hours upon hours just sitting in my room, reading things online, building online community, and fulfilling that desire for connectivity and communication through the internet. But I forgot the most important part, and that was that an online community is only as strong as it is real life. And this contributed to my inability to communicate verbally with people. I can communicate fine online, but when it came to face2face interaction I was in trouble.
So all of these things have added to my quiet nature, and have eventually developed into almost a complete inability to interact verbally and physically with another person.
Today is the National Day of Prayer and we have been in prayer sessions all day here at Moody and it has been awesome. The Lord has convicted me of this very strongly, and to be honest I have not fully processed it yet. I came straight back to my room after the session because I knew that I needed to write these thoughts out or else they would be gone.
I know that I need to do something. I need to take some sort of action in order to stop this sin, and reconcile it, but I don't think I am prepared to write about what those things are yet, because I don't even know exactly what they are.
But one thing I do know for sure is that I need to stop wasting my time here at Moody, stop being selfish with my time, and start investing in other people in a positive way. This means encouraging others, getting to know others better, keeping myself and others accountable, and I think choosing one person to really invest some time in. Whatever I need to do to accomplish these things, I will do.
So I want to apologize to those who I have ignored, who I've created awkward situations with, or who I've hurt because of my own pride. I am sorry, and I hope things can be reconciled.
You might read this and say, "Josh, you are being too hard on yourself." But I don't think I am, and if I really am being too hard on myself, then thats good, because I probably need to be.
If you have any feedback for me then let me know, shoot me an email or something.
Thank you for reading this, and I hope you all have a glorious day
I have always been a quiet guy. Never had much to say, and I've always struggled with what to say when I meet new people. I have always struggled with relating to people. But this struggle has escalated majorly over I guess the past year. Or maybe it hasn't really escalated that much, but instead has come more to the forefront and is easier for me to see. I think it is a bit of both, maybe more of one than the other. But either way this struggle has turned into a sin, and I think it is displeasing God.
I have always struggled with relationships, whether it be with close friends, not so close friends, or even girlfriends. I have always struggled with communication and making sure that it is not just a one-way relationship. I think alot of what I have been noticing in myself has been brought to the forefront because of my last relationship that I was in with a girl. There were lots of things wrong with that relationship, but one of them was my communication.
Through some conversations with my last girlfriend I realized how selfish I really am. And it didn't seem selfish to me at the time, but looking back, I think it really was. I would say things like, "There are some people that just don't seem worth the time that it takes for me to get to know them, or talk with them." My philosophy on relationships here at Moody has always been that it is better to have a couple close friends, rather than a bunch of people that are your "friends" but you aren't close to. And I still somewhat hold to this philosophy, but I took this to such an extreme that I would just ignore people, or it would be really awkward around people when I run into them. I think alot of this comes back to just my inability to communicate well, but I shouldn't be using this as an excuse for that type of behavior.
The way this has become sin is because I won't bother to get to know people that I don't want to know, and therefore that turns into the perception of pride. Or maybe it is just straight up pride. But either way if alot of people are perceiving me as proud then I probably really am proud.
So I've realized alot through my relationship with my previous girlfriend, and then when we broke up I just became somewhat cynical towards girls in general. And I've developed this unconscious philosophy that I don't want to get close to a girl, or become friends with a girl unless I have the intention of getting closer to her, and eventually dating her. I'm still processing through whether this is the right way to think or not. I mean obviously I shouldn't be thinking this way all the time, but I think there is some truth in this way of thinking.
And throughout all of these things happening within my mind, and me unconsciously developing these philosophies on friendships and relationships I have been becoming more and more entrenched and obsessed with the world of the internet and technology, and more specifically the world of social media on the internet. I know, this sounds really geeky, but it is completely true, and this has had an impact on the way that I behave so I think it is profitable that I write about it.
I have always been a geek. Ever since my parents got their first computer back when I was in grade school I have learned more and more about computers, and have gained this ability to problem solve in the area of computers and technology. Then our household got dial-up internet, and this started to shape my world. But there was so much limitations with dial-up internet that I didn't see much profit in it. But then we got high-speed internet and thats when I really discovered the internet. So over the years I have learned more and more about computers, and technology.
So through various different social media mediums I developed this desire to always stay connected to those in my network, or on the internet. Whether this was through facebook, myspace, twitter, blogging, or any other means of staying connected socially through the internet. Through this I cut myself off from the physical world around me. I have become so entrenched in the technology world that I completely forgot about actually nurturing those relationships in real life. Even over the past semester I will spend hours upon hours just sitting in my room, reading things online, building online community, and fulfilling that desire for connectivity and communication through the internet. But I forgot the most important part, and that was that an online community is only as strong as it is real life. And this contributed to my inability to communicate verbally with people. I can communicate fine online, but when it came to face2face interaction I was in trouble.
So all of these things have added to my quiet nature, and have eventually developed into almost a complete inability to interact verbally and physically with another person.
Today is the National Day of Prayer and we have been in prayer sessions all day here at Moody and it has been awesome. The Lord has convicted me of this very strongly, and to be honest I have not fully processed it yet. I came straight back to my room after the session because I knew that I needed to write these thoughts out or else they would be gone.
I know that I need to do something. I need to take some sort of action in order to stop this sin, and reconcile it, but I don't think I am prepared to write about what those things are yet, because I don't even know exactly what they are.
But one thing I do know for sure is that I need to stop wasting my time here at Moody, stop being selfish with my time, and start investing in other people in a positive way. This means encouraging others, getting to know others better, keeping myself and others accountable, and I think choosing one person to really invest some time in. Whatever I need to do to accomplish these things, I will do.
So I want to apologize to those who I have ignored, who I've created awkward situations with, or who I've hurt because of my own pride. I am sorry, and I hope things can be reconciled.
You might read this and say, "Josh, you are being too hard on yourself." But I don't think I am, and if I really am being too hard on myself, then thats good, because I probably need to be.
If you have any feedback for me then let me know, shoot me an email or something.
Thank you for reading this, and I hope you all have a glorious day
Tuesday, March 3, 2009
the mind
The human mind is a very interesting thing, and sometimes a very frustrating thing. Especially the mind of a male. Myself being a male I have personal experience with this. One second I will be doing something and thinking about something, and then the next second my mind is in a completely different place. Many times this is not a good thing. Many times the thoughts that come into my mind are not good, and this is when it becomes frustrating.
It is interesting to see my mind in a conscious battle for purity. It is almost like I can see a little devil and a little angel on each shoulder trying to tell me what to do.
It is in these times when I find myself praying alot. I find myself quoting Scripture back to myself. "Wherewithal shall a young man cleanse his way? By taking heed thereto according to thy Word." Psalm 119:9. That is probably King James Version but that is how I memorized it, and that is what helps me the most.
What helps you the most when your mind wanders astray? Do you pray? Do you quote Scripture?
It is interesting to see my mind in a conscious battle for purity. It is almost like I can see a little devil and a little angel on each shoulder trying to tell me what to do.
It is in these times when I find myself praying alot. I find myself quoting Scripture back to myself. "Wherewithal shall a young man cleanse his way? By taking heed thereto according to thy Word." Psalm 119:9. That is probably King James Version but that is how I memorized it, and that is what helps me the most.
What helps you the most when your mind wanders astray? Do you pray? Do you quote Scripture?
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